Can you imagine what you would do after this is all over?
Will your life change as a result?
It's easy to forgot the uncomfortable and stressful times of the past year.
It's amazing how easy it is for people to switch. Like they are enduring drama and then nothing is wrong.
When I was younger, my first girlfriend who I really smothered, only in the way that first love can do, cheated on me.
One day it was deep, everlasting love. The next day it was like she had forgotten who I was.
It was so painful.
This is how I feel like in the covid era. One minute you are locked up inside. The streets are empty. You have an evening curfew.
Next moment you are invited to the city to sing Jingle Bells. Shop til you drop. Stare at the Myer Windows.
It's kind of insane.
I know life moves on. I know that there would be a 'gradual re-opening' for all the a-holes.
What about all the people who have suffered? What about all the people still in pain?
"What about me?" As the old song went. "It isn't fair? I've had enough and I want my share. Can't you see, I want to live? But you just take more than you give?"
I always found that song a bit whiney. But it's true in its sentiments.
How can we just carry on pretending nothing has happened.
The truth is, we can't. This trauma needs to be addressed. It's all denial and disassociation at this point.
For those 'awake' to what is going on, it may take some time to talk about what you've been through.
Acknowledging it, talking about it, and coming to terms with it is going to be a process.
I think that's more important work to do than pretending nothing happened, and it's simply 'business as usual'.
It's not. We need some healing.
Yeh, its been a rough ride, but, you know, I have grown so much in ways I couldn't have if I didn't experience this. It was a cauldron of confusion that was stirred and shaken until I had no choice but to allow it to burn off bits of myself that were fixed and unhelpful. It really drove me to feel into the truth of my fears and beliefs and even all the things about being that I took for granted. It forced me to mature my thoughts and beliefs. But, yeh, time to re-establish the new and broken bits of self and kintsukuroi myself through the metamorphosis
I agree that we need acknowledgment of what has been done to the people for healing. However, this is never going to happen and we need to accept this. Also we can’t forget that this still is not over. We still have a segregated society, an authoritarian government, a weak opposition and Pandemic legislation days away from being introduced.
I also feel like most people are
a-holes too, from the people who love the government control to the apathetic ones. I have to remind myself they are just doing what they think is right, just like I am doing (even though I don’t get it)